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[Aug. 31st, 2009|12:16 pm] |
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First day of work starts today. I've officially stepped into the working world. i've a meeting outside the office later, seminar on thurs and 4 days of full day course at the expo. omg i dont know how im gona survive. first step - gotta start sleeping early! have you guys heard of the famous antony robbins? now its my turn to attend. its $995 but we got sponsored and i just found out bff jacjac and cousin pat is joining me. yay!! first day, he's gonna make us walk barefoot across a bed of hot coals. =/ right now, i dont have the courage to do so but everyone there will be pressurizing. once, i walked barefoot across a bed of bottle glasses and all these are supposed to help overcome mental fear but im still as timid as ever. sighhh
how am i gona start sleeping early when i have to spend my night webcamming with Ek. yea, if you guys dont know yet, he has left to LA for further studies. all these months, i have been panicking and depressing over the thought of him going and honesly, its not that bad as i thought. im actually perfectly fine.
everyone who meets me ask me why am i so fine when they all had a bet im gona cry every single day.
i guess this is because, all these months, i have prepared myself to be a stronger person. and it prop hasnt hit me yet that hes so far away as he travels like friggin all the time. so im basically used to him being away but he contacts me many times a day. so that helps alot! but definately, im gona fall weak sooner or later. i give myself in 2 wks time. just cant wait for him to get his blackberry soon!
Ek's so cute. he mails me everything in details. like what he eats and every ingredients. there are in his meal. he also gave me the website link of the restaurant/cafe so i can take a look at it. hahahah i love reading every single detail, makes me feel im actually with him.
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i didnt mention that im someone that can never ever do a long distance r/s. i dont believe in it even if there's trust. cause when we all change in different environment and exposure. im also the most needy gf around ever. so the past months, me and ek cried together each time we talk about him leaving. it was so hard. we had to consult people who been through this. what's worst is, me and ekka live with each other every single day. and now hes not beside me huggin me to sleep. we were like a married couple. just w/o the ceremony! hahahahaha
let's hope work and friends will help time pass by quickly.
and remind me please, i gotta be strong!!!! |
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