yours truly

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 05:23:28 GMT

too lazy to type out this entry so here's a very very brief summary.

we had a pet fish "kiki" in our hotel room
A&W was horrible. should have ate KFC instead
it was rather cooling on the first day. didnt expect the cool weather
changed my blackberry bazel to pink and got cheated of the price
bbq plaza for dinner. yummy garlic rice with beef/pork
lunch at L'Occitane. beautiful environment. yummy beef noodles
dinner at greyhound cafe with bew. have always love the decor there
yummy thai food before we had our hair done
jac permed her hair while me n tess had our hair washed n blown
my hair was so sexy, like a work of art
tess felt lazy to go to the Dome so we went home
had mcdonalds delivery at home with our nice hair. what a waste
shopping shopping shopping
1 hour traffic jam when i could have jus walked over
met up with guan min to chill at our hotel
CCB from auntie anne was soooo good. *no pun intended*
had our hair wash n blown again
guan min came over for dvds & pizza company delivery over at our hotel
min brought us to route 66 for dj Buddha's birthday celebration
went up the stage to party where we heard endorphine sang live. (a famous thai band tho we didnt know)
clubs closed at 2am so we were only there for an hour
sat on a tuk tuk almost everyday
had mcdonalds delivery every single day!!! yummy double filet o fish
saw many cute thai boys
met up with bew again for dinner at a very nice restaurant
had our nails done and tess decided to re-do her nails the next day
thought our flight home was at 8pm when it was 6pm
plane food was horrible back home. so we ordered free cup noodles

a rather superficial and materialistic entry

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 18:53:41 GMT

all these years i have never seen / felt a need to own a luxury branded handbag. it was always a want but never a need. i would be able to control my feelings when i chance upon something that catches my mind. i'll absorb the horrible feeling and then realised i dont need it badly and i'll try and to let go off the feelings. it always work.

my first ever branded bag bought specially for me was the multicolor LV bag huge speedy. i have no idea why i was so crazy about that bag at that time. it was such a easy bag to be dirtied. it was 3k plus and the best thing was, it's made out of friggin canvas. not even leather. i didnt bear to use it much as i was afraid the white canvas would be dirtied. the bag has been collecting dust for years. it doesnt seem fashionable now but rather matured.

it seems like most girl our age would want a chanel classic for their very first bag. i tried so hard to persuade my mum to buy that for me but she was never willing to spend so much on a bag even for herself. i researched on how it would be an investment piece and repeated to her everynight. since she was on a holiday at europe at that time, she decided to buy it for me. a dream came true. the feeling of opening the black box and touching the softest lamb skin was priceless. i hardly use it anyway cause the skin is too delicate and being such a clumsy person i am, the delicate lamb skin isnt at the best state tho i rarely used it. :( owning one chanel was a dream come true and i have no other interest in any other bags. (for the longest period ever)

then i got so crazy over miu miu bags. i waited for years to own the classic coffer bag. right now, miu miu doesnt tempt me anymore causeeeeeee i found out of the brand balenciaga. the smartest designer of all, i must say. all he has to do is think of a design, change the studs and play with colours and every colour will definately be a sell out as everyone in the world has different colour preferences. when the motocycle bags were fashionable, i didnt like it at all. it looks cheap too me somehow. it's amazing how pop out studs change the whole look of the bag in an instance. my brother's gf was collecting the bags of different colours and all i could was stare in envy. i was pretty strong to be able to comfort myself for years that it's not a need in life. its just another bag.

i hate to admit it. but im wrong. year after year, season after season. i miss my dream colours. i didnt know that once the season is gone, you can hardly find that colour ever again. i feel like kicking myself hard every time i fail in finding my dream colour - turquoise or amethyst or anything in gold studs. how the hell would i know they would discontinued gold studs forever!

last christmas, my bro and his gf decided to get me a present cum 21st bday present. yea, a balenciaga bag. after opening their present, ekka on the other hand bought me another balenciaga bag for xmas cum 21st bday present. 2 big surprises i'd last xmas. its funny how i dont even wana look at ppl on the streets with their chanel bags cus its such a common bag and with lots of inspired ones around. but a anyone carrying a balenciaga bag makes my eyes go POP POP POP! cus i keep seeing a nicer or unique colour. and i go shit! i like that colour more than mine! dammit.

i searched the whole of barneys in NY, Las Vegas, Bkk, Singapore etc just to find the turquoise/amethyst gold studs bag and it came to a point where i accepted the fact i can never ever own it. untill last week when i was in BKK, maki bombed my hp when she was in paris for 3 days. she told me the colour code and to make a decision immediately. i didnt have any internet with me and i was panicking and panicking, i rushed out with a cab all alone at midnight looking for an internet cafe. the guy at the lobby told my cab driver and sent me to frigging patpong where all the thai pussy shows are. i was freaking out as it was such a dodgy place. i called ekka immediately and he was very very angry with me that i actually risk my life just for a bag tho he knows how much i want it badly. i felt that it was such a crisis that nobody would understand cause i went through so much pain just to find this dream colour of mine.

yesterday on the way home, guan min bbm me telling me there's a royal blue bb bag on sale and she kept tempting me making me so cruious i sped all the way home just to check the links she was sending me. i surf the whole of purse forum the entire night admiring everyone's collection. and to start off the day, as i was visiting the dentist with my mum, i bumbed into a girl carrying my dream amethyst bag. i never thought i would actually see it live other than purseforum. i even stop to talk to her so that she'll let me have a closer look.

today, my cousin bbm me over from HK for the latest arrival of chanel that came in today which was in royal blue. holycow! i have never ever seen a royal blue chanel in my life. i have no intentions getting it as i cant afford it with my frigging salary and having no allowances anymore. besides, that limited ed bag adds up to 2 bb bags! ekka just woke up and told me that if i dont get it now, i will regret for lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.apparently its for VIPS only and they only have 2 pieces. i cant believe he's encouraging me to buy it now tho im totally flat ass broke!! however, i dont see a need why i should get another blue bag when i own a royal blue marc jacobs bag and an upcoming turquoise bag! (cant wait cant waittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt cant friggin wait)

i spent 1.5k in bangkok with my own money. gotta work another 3 months to clear off my debt for an incoming bb bag and i need a few more countless months to be able to cover this new chanel bag if i were to get it. decisions by the time i wake up which would be in a few hours.

ok, this was a rather superficial and materialistic entry. and totally a waste of your time if you bothered to read it. i just cant believe how bags have taken over my life in this 2 weeks. i really wish money wasnt a problem for me. but then again, chanel and balenciaga shouldnt be my needs in life. Though honestly, i personally feel that if you own one bb bag, you might be another obsessed victim like me. just surf purseforum n take a look at everyone's huge ass collections. This entry wasn't to show off what I have but just a conclusion to myself of what I might be turning into! Cus in my whole entire life till now, I'm the most budget person when it comes to fashion. I don't buy labels cus fashion comes n go so fast but now my perception of bags r different. Even ekka jus told me it can be an investment piece and sell it on ebay eventually. Lol. goodnight bag lovers out there.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 15:33:01 GMT

MY PHOTOBUCKET BANDWITH HAS EXCEEDED. GOD KNOWS WHY? WILL SOMEONE PLS TELL ME WHAT ISIT ABOUT? MY BEAUTIFUL PICTURES ARE BEING REPLACED BY STUPID ICONS TELLING ME TO UPGRADE TO PRO. IM ACTUALLY THINKING IF I SHOULD SPEND THE MONEY BUT I HARDLY BLOG ANYMORE! (THANKS TO FB & TWITTER!) PICTURES WILL ONLY BE BACK IN EXACTLY ONE WEEK TIME. SO STAY TUNED :(

btw, i jus caught the ugly truth (again!) with my mum and it's so awkward and uncomfortable watching the sexual orgasm part with her. you get what i mean. it's just so wrong!

tomorrow marks 2 months since ekka has left. how fast or rather how slow! another 2 more months to go before he's back for a holiday. ever since he left, i have gained 3kg! i have no idea why since my appitite is always this huge but i wasnt gaining before and now my cheeks, arms, thighs are slowing becoming chubbier. looks like im getting older and my metabolism rate is going down the drain. i know me gaining this 3kg is no big deal to you guys but imagine in another 2 months, there might be a possibility i'll gain another 3kg. There's no way i can cut down on my intake of food with bangkok trips ahead, christmas and chinese new year and we are already planning on a huge daily feast when ekka is back. Poor boy misses local food so badly. Soon, im gonna balloon up and you guys might not recognise me anymore. booooooooo :(

am still contemplating if i should spend money on blades or use it for shopping instead. shopping makes me happier, buying blades does not, unless if it's hot pink or the hotpink barbie with butterflies blades i'd in primary school. those were the days...

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 17:22:46 GMT

They say New York City is the city that never sleeps. Honestly, it's bullshit!! All Shops were closed at 7 or 8pm and by the time we got up and get ready, it would be 3.30pm. Sometimes we'll reach the city even later due to travelling time and lunch. We didnt feel the rush to get up and explore early as we kept thinking we have many more days ahead but we were wrong. didnt manage to watch more broadways or do more stuff.

The only reason why it never sleeps is due to the lights at times square and how it's filled with tons n tons of tourists hanging around and doing nothing. And that's how we spent our days in new york, just slacking by times square chatting and people watching. Do u even realised there r no shopping bags in these pictures taken on both days. Oh! do you even realise the policemen are hitting on young chicks or taking pictures with tourist that wants a snapshot. such an easy job to be petrolling at Times SQ

Subways were very confusing which made us appreciate singapore alot more. Different train stations go to different places so we ended up walking and walking instead of getting the train. We could walk from 9th street to 50th street or even further. we had so much time once all the shops were close so we'll walk from streets to streets till we decide to head home near midnight. And every night, our feets ache so much due to the insane amount of walking. I didnt expect that at first and i brought 2 high heels as i wanted to be dressy but everyone in NY wears slippers as they hardly drive.

What matters was the company of me and him in a foreign land and it just finally hit me that i doubt there'll be another opportunity for us to travel for a long period of time together again. :(

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:23:21 GMT

Before ekka left for LA, we decided to make a trip down to BKK with my parents. Initially me & ek booked for a total of 9 days so that we can have some private time there. US embassy screwed up our plans due to problems with his student visa so we missed our flight. Then, they had to keep his passport with him for a few days so my cousin forgo her air tix and the both of us bought a brand new ticket. Maki on the other hand had fyp submission so she forgo her air tix as well and flew up with ekka a few days later with a brand new air tix. Gosh, the troubles of buying budget air tickets and booking in advance. my parents then flew in after that. in the end, all of us had to buy a brand new tix seperately and spent a bomb instead.

It was only when we landed in bangkok that my cousin realised she does not have auto-roming on her hp and i left mine in spore so everyone back at home was worried sick that we were uncontactable.

Day 1 : we had lunch at MK steamboat, shopping and tomyum along the roadside!

2nd day : our hotel buggy sent us out to the main road, went to Siam paragon to meet my parents once they landed. Had lunch and full body massage together and at night, our 'thai princess' friend came to hang out with us.

3rd day : Shopping shopping shopping so no pictures!

4th day : Shabu Shabu buffet lunch that was served through a conveyor belt. it was so lousy and horrible. tried to hint many times to passer-bys outside that the food suck.

4th day : Ekka treated all of us for dinner at this really beautiful thai restaurant at a hotel where Micheal Jackson stayed once. The setting was so beautiful and classy in our own private room.

Group picture of all of us after dinner. It was such a beautiful sight.

4th day : After dinner, we headed to The Dome for booze and to chill out. 2nd time im there and again, i told everyone i wana get engaged right there. Dad wasn't into the chilling and relaxing and bugged us to leave for supper along the roadside as it was his last day. Yummy mango sticky rice and wantan mee. (pics below)

5th day : We girls went to the weekend market but didnt manage to shop much cause ekka came to meet us with the bad news of the accident back in spore and we didnt have much mood to shop anymore. Pictures of us with self timer shots at our living room in our beautiful hotel.

Pictures of random street food that were cheep cheeep and yummyyyy!!

Pictures of my beautiful hotel room. the view of the pool is amazing, just look at it! the colours, the concept.
we had our own kitchen, living room and cute toiletries that i wanted to steal them all.

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU BANGKOK!
The ultimate shopping experience, the yummy cheap food, the friendly people with huge smiles, the sweetest hot pink cabs, the cheap and creative manicures, the most amazing view at Dome, my lovely hotel and the list goes on...

but most of all, i love my bangkok boy <3

19 more days till bangkok with darling jac & tess for jac's 21st! exciteddddddddddddd =D

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 15:43:21 GMT

cant believe this lovely roses are still alive after 10 days!! someone please teach me how to dry a bouquet of roses cause i really dont know how to. i water them every single day, then when its dying, i turn it upside down and dry it and after awhile there'll be a smell and the petals will be falling apart. prob has some fungus attack due to the strong stench so all my bouquets given by ekka dearest were all being thrown away. such a waste of money too. yet some people say it's bad luck to keep dead roses in your room.

so 10 days ago, last mon, as i was about to leave the office at 6.30pm, i'd a surprise at the door waiting for me. the delivery man came late! ekka sent me roses. love from all the way from LA. sooooo sweet of him. though i didnt like that the roses were wrapped in green wrapper. why of all colour green. it doesnt go with pink! of all his bouquets he has given me, this isnt the nicest of the lot. that's cause he isn't around to handpick the roses and customised them. but im not complaining, cause he's still the sweetest! <3

2 days before he sent me the surprise, (that weekend) he MIA on me (to cool off) after we had a little arguement. i was fighting really badly with my brother over some work/family issues and i needed him to hear me rant out loud. but he had to study for his test the next day and couldn't focus on me. so i was rather annoyed and very affected cause i had no one else to rant and head for some wise advices. in the end, we had a mini-fight and we led our own life during the weekend.

i tried callin him to wish him good luck for his test but he didnt answer my calls so i didn't bother much and led my life here with distractions to keep me strong. so dearest ekka spent the weekend all alone in LA reflecting and feeling emotional about our long distance r/s and decided to surprise me the day i return to work. seriously, he didnt have to as it's just the weekends. not like he MIA on me for days and weeks. but sooooooo sweet of him!

i actually realised this long distance r/s does help us become stronger. you know after every arguments, im the sort that will bomb his phone to settle it now now now as my heart cant take it and i'll go crazy. but now that he's so far away, it's so hard to argue so by the time i talk to him again, i forgot all that happened and i cant be bothered to pick another fight. hahahaha. so that's rather good. lol.

this long distance r/s is doing very well. very very strong and smooth and i'm so proud of US. or rather im so proud of me me me! before, i was very afraid of the time difference. how he will be sleeping when im awake and not being able to be there for me. but the timing suits us perfectly well.

when im up for work in the morning, he's having dinner so we'll chat on bbm. when im in office, he'll be doing his homework till the wee morning (poor him!). sometimes he's up doing his assignments till 4am and it would be 7pm here. (though, i should really stop distracting him from doing his assignments so that he'll be able to sleep earlier!) and when im in bed at 1 or 2am, he'll be waking up and rushing to school. dont you agree the timing is just perfect? makes me feel he's actually all around me most of the time. heheee

i love you ekka ekka <3
goondnight to me, good morning to you! xoxo

what a weekenddddddddd!! :)

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 16:54:58 GMT

"Ah lians" at work + shopping at Zara for my blazer. Loveeeee the fitting! During meetings at work, i'm required to dress in full corporate suits. Only white blouse, black pencil skirt, black blazer and heels are allowed. No fanciful bling bling nails are allowed too. Seriously, im really affected by the strict rules that i have to apply on meeting & showroom days. First of all, i cant imagine myself having plain pale colour nails. Next, i dont even have any pure white tops, black pencil skirts or plain black heels. all my clothes and heels are coloured or patterned. Cant believe i've to change my wardrobe into boring plain clothes that are so lifeless =( (grainy pictures - taken by my blackberry)

Another meetup after work for dinner. Me showing off my hot pink eyeliner which my mum doesn't approved for work. Every morning, she comments on my dressing. Dress too short, stockings too bright in colour etc but the moment i walked in to the office, jac jac will make me happy by saying 'ooooh i love this.' hehehee.

Had a looooonggggg day at work on friday that i didnt even have time for dinner. Dropped over at Wayne's place as the rest were playing roulette with alcohol shots. While the rest had to down whisky, i'd red wine and green tea. How lucky!! Went home early as i've to work the next day :(

Saturday afternoon was spent giving out flyers at Telok Kura & Lagoon hawker centre. Was rather annoyed that i was giving out flyers under the hot sun during a wkend while my parents were off to KL for a holiday. But it's all worth it in the end cause someone picked up my flyer and rang me up yesterday. just dont know what to do next. im totally lost in this industry. =/

Saturday night was spent at Helipad for the cereal killers. Feat Special K and Capt Crunch. Music was so awesomeeeeeeeee. Drank quite a bit thanks to Dawn and Cara which were madly insane that night. or rather, every night! =p

Dinner with Maki and Perpetua at Fish & Co on sunday night as Maki was leaving to sydney for a holiday. 2 pictures of us on facebook from my Blackberry. Then i dropped by Christian's house for one drink and off to Janevin's place to play drinking games at her poolside area. I've such great luck for drinking games. Alcohol for the rest but hardly for me!! Yay :)

Then at 1am, we went off to Zouk for RSG feat Steve Aioki and Diplo. He didnt fall to the ground while body surfing this time. lol

Came home and camwhore with my blackberry. heheee. Do you noticed i've such a hugeeeee nose. Just look at the huge ball! i hate how it's growing rounder and rounder. and btw, none of my pictures in my whole entire blog are photoshopped. you guys just prob didnt notice earlier that i've a ball on my nose. =O)

Monday night was spent at Media corp for the grand finals of Singtel Grid Girls. Before the finals, we already knew who the winners are. That just shows how f*cked up such competitions are. The judges that night were just for show. They didnt even write any notes or do anything. Questions and answers part were the best part of the show. Seems like these girls only know one f1 racer which is none other than Lewis Hamilton. So proud of my darling sherie baby for being in top 10. i was shouting at the top of my lungs just for her!

and another pic of me camwhoring with my blackberry. i wished my BB camera would be better.

This sums up my wholeeeeeeeeeeeeee long weekend. How was your long weekend? =) was dreading to start work on tues. But can you believe it? It's already friday!!!!!! The weekend is here again!!!! 2 birthday celebrations this weekend. yay!! i love activities. keeps me distracted from being emo without ekka! =)

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 17:40:59 GMT

i have to announce to the world, that DAWN LU-LU is my hero!!! me and dawn were driving home all alone in our own cars last night. i was on the phone on the first lane and i didnt realised that there was a yellow swift car on the 3rd lane. when i caught a glimpse on the car, everyone at the back seat were waving at me with a smile on their faces. i was really distracted by the phone call and the road and i couldnt see clearly who they were.

Dawn was behind in the middle lane and she called me in a slighty angry voice to tell me that the yellow car is trying to challenge me but she will take care of it. she even told me not to worry. i was really puzzled at that point of time as i didn't know what was going on. the moment dawn lu-lu hung up the phone, she started to challenge the yellow car on the bridge of the ECP highway at the speed of 140!!! i would never be able to speed that fast on the highway bridge as i've a phobia of heights. (yea, i get really jiggly when im on the bridge where the spore flyer is at, even worst when my car top is down. feels like im flying out anytime!)

i lost sight of both of them immediately as they went up the bridge and disappeared. And there i was, still trying to figure out what was going on. When i drove down the empty bridge, i saw dawn's car right in the middle of the lane and she friggin hell jammed break on the yellow swift car. when i saw that, i couldnt stop laughing. it was soooooooooooooooooooo funny. she frigging hell jammed break on the yellow car, hoping they would bang her. she was all alone in the car while the small car was filled with many malay kids and she wasn't inferior by anything. she even point the middle finger back at them.

Dawn called me again and told me to get home safe and not to worry cause she's handling everything. Though i was laughin, i was really scared for her. Im such a timid person while she's so fierce. didnt expect that out of a tiny person like her. HAHAH.

so, Dawn Lu-lu is officially my hero. so touched by her actions and concerns. she said she had to take care of me since ekka isnt here. awwwwwwwwwww. <3 love you!

(taken by her blackberry. the flash was so bright and painful, i'd to look the other side)

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:19:37 GMT

The absence is starting to hit me. i miss you ekkawat.
miss you miss you miss you :(

i was at work just now in the afternoon and ekka wanted to show me his brand new leather jacket he bought yesterday. so he video called me and started to do actions like he was riding a bike. it was soooooooo funny and cute. i couldn't stop laughing. Then he asked me if i could hear the song playing on his background but i couldnt turn on the volume at work. it was a lovely song that we both love and he sang the whole song with complete lame actions that made me laugh though i couldnt hear anything :)

Also, just a few days ago, i was emo over some matters and he was trying to comfort me online with his cute little dance again. his lame dancing is really hilarious. Too cute! It's so effective that it cheers me up anytime!!! ;)

Daphne <3 says:

im cryin

in santamonica cali says:

:'(

in santamonica cali says:

no dont be

in santamonica cali says:

pls dun cry

in santamonica cali says:

i will dance for u

in santamonica cali says:

make u smile

in santamonica cali says:

accept the video call!

in santamonica cali says:

iam ur bff, i will listen to u

in santamonica cali says:

i love u

in santamonica cali says:

i'll assure u everyday

in santamonica cali says:

that's my love for u

in santamonica cali says:

it'll never change

Isn't Ek the sweetest? im so lucky to be loved by you <3

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 14:39:37 GMT

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor

So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your mother
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it

Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you

You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 17:55:21 GMT

one thing i gotta say.........

BLACKBERRY FTW!!!! im in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee with my blackberry! or rather, im really addicted to it. im on it 24/7 that my battery is always dead by evening time. argh. i hate the battery life span. other that that, it's the coolest shit ever!!! ekka bought his blackberry tour today, and i think i like it better than the bold. its slimmer and smaller, not as bulky as the bold but its not out in spore yet. arghhh. with my blackberry internet and bbm, i can surf or chat at any time of the day. i even took a train to town and bus home that day and i wasnt bored as my blackberry was so entertaining! each time, i know ek's online, i was able to log into my msn anywhere just to chat with him. but now that he has his own bb, we'll be able to chat all the time.

another cool thing that i just discovered was, if your names on my contact list were spelled the same way as on your facebook, whenever i call you, your current fb display pic will be shown. and when i right click on your contact, i can either choose to sms you or write on your fb wall. i can even poke u on fb directly. though im still not sure what is the poke application about. isit smthing like nudge?? lol. another thing, your birthday date will also be auto saved on my calender as the hp has sync in with my fb. how cool is that!! smart phone, indeed!!! <3

i have also downloaded an application so that my lights will blink to different colours for different functions. such as emails, calls, smses etc. just that this is taking even more of my battery life. argh. downside is, i get lots and lots of emails coming to me. esp when my friends start commenting on fb pictures or spam emails. my hp has been blinking all the time that im holding onto it every minute. im obsessed with my blackberry!!!!! <3

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 04:49:02 GMT

cause of Facebook, this blog lacks pictures...
cause of Twitter, this blog lacks updates....

First day of work starts today. I've officially stepped into the working world. i've a meeting outside the office later, seminar on thurs and 4 days of full day course at the expo. omg i dont know how im gona survive. first step - gotta start sleeping early! have you guys heard of the famous antony robbins? now its my turn to attend. its $995 but we got sponsored and i just found out bff jacjac and cousin pat is joining me. yay!! first day, he's gonna make us walk barefoot across a bed of hot coals. =/ right now, i dont have the courage to do so but everyone there will be pressurizing. once, i walked barefoot across a bed of bottle glasses and all these are supposed to help overcome mental fear but im still as timid as ever. sighhh

how am i gona start sleeping early when i have to spend my night webcamming with Ek. yea, if you guys dont know yet, he has left to LA for further studies. all these months, i have been panicking and depressing over the thought of him going and honesly, its not that bad as i thought. im actually perfectly fine.
everyone who meets me ask me why am i so fine when they all had a bet im gona cry every single day.
i guess this is because, all these months, i have prepared myself to be a stronger person. and it prop hasnt hit me yet that hes so far away as he travels like friggin all the time. so im basically used to him being away but he contacts me many times a day. so that helps alot! but definately, im gona fall weak sooner or later. i give myself in 2 wks time. just cant wait for him to get his blackberry soon!

Ek's so cute. he mails me everything in details. like what he eats and every ingredients. there are in his meal. he also gave me the website link of the restaurant/cafe so i can take a look at it. hahahah i love reading every single detail, makes me feel im actually with him.

edit//
i didnt mention that im someone that can never ever do a long distance r/s. i dont believe in it even if there's trust. cause when we all change in different environment and exposure. im also the most needy gf around ever. so the past months, me and ek cried together each time we talk about him leaving. it was so hard. we had to consult people who been through this. what's worst is, me and ekka live with each other every single day. and now hes not beside me huggin me to sleep. we were like a married couple. just w/o the ceremony! hahahahaha

let's hope work and friends will help time pass by quickly.
and remind me please, i gotta be strong!!!!

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:33:22 GMT

Got back from Bangkok on Sunday night. Me, Ekka, Pat & Maki booked a jetstar flight not too long ago, not realising our schedule got clashed once it got nearer. in the end, all of us had to buy a new ticket to fly there and forfeit our departure ticket. so expensive. add it all up, and we paid for an SQ tix each. Pat and I bought a new tix from tiger airlines and it was our first time departing from the budget terminal. flight was really bad and dirty. all the cloth seats were stained. ewww. jetstar is so much better. when we got there, the 2 of us took a long long nap till evening before we went out for dinner along the streets. as my hp had no battery, i didnt bring along to bangkok, thinking that pat's blackberry would be more than enough. only late at night did we realise her hp has no auto-roming and we were both uncontactable!! how silly!!

my parents flew over the next day and we couldnt contact each other till late afternoon. then the following day, ekka and Maki flew over together to meet us at night. EKka's youngest brother from bkk also came to join us.

shopping was great!!! i went crazy with my all time favourite trends since many many years ago. all along, i have this strong fetish for studs, lace, fringe and sequins! bangkok is also not as cheap as before too. many years ago everything was 199 baht, now its 290 baht and the nicer piece can be a few thousand baht! bargaining does not help much too but since we are already there, we just have to spend it all!! bought tons of stuff that were so my kind of style unlike in the US, where everything was so expensive and i was just buying for the sake of buying.

it was also raining on certain days and the streets were flooding with dirty water. it was so gross. anyway, when we were at chatuchak market, ekka received a phone call from his bro back in spore and we didnt have the mood to continue shopping around, thus, we didnt cover much. . .

today, ekka went to collect his new car of 3 months and look how badly crashed it was. =/
doubt insurance can claim and he would have to spend thousand of dollar to repair it
but to me, all that matters is the 2 people in the car is safe and has been discharged out of hospital.

if you are curious to know what happened, ek's bro drove his friends home after clubbing and he felt really tired. he set his car mode to cruise control (where you dont have to step anymore and where i always say 'look ma! no hands/feet!') and he doze off and knock into a lorry and then into a curb. his best friend was dead drunk at the back of the car. all the cabs were not willing to send him home as they were afraid he might vomit in their cabs. damm those taxi. whats the point of picking customers up at clubbing area then?!!! so the drunk guy was sent to the hospital and he was in coma but thank god he woke up 2 days later. this sounds like the movie 'the hangover!'

so everyone out there, do drive carefully always!! </3

help!!!

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:55:49 GMT

i cant decide which to get later in the day.
blackberry bold or curve?

bb users are asking me to get the bold
as it is newer and i guess better
but the curve is smaller n lighter.

and i hate changing hps!!
all my sweet sweet smses in the phone will be all gone.
stupid N71 cant save my msges to my sim card :(
that hp was bought less than a year ago
but bye bye to it, hello blackberry!!

please, help me decide!!!

"You don't need me. I'm just a blonde bitch covered in bubbles."

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 20:25:05 GMT

LADY GAGA ONCE AGAIN! <3 <3 <3

"Put your hands up, and dance you muthafuckers!"

Lady gaga was sooooooo awesome. she never fails to put up a good show. and i mean really good. Would pay to watch her for the 3rd time if she comes back again. just one thing i hate - the damm fucking location!!!!! Hot, sweaty and dehyrated from the 4 hours of her arrival. chilli crabs anyone? =p

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 08:46:40 GMT

4.30am in the morning but me and ekka arent sleepy yet. thought i'll blog and add pictures here cause im usually lazy to upload my holiday pictures. havent even post my taiwan pictures up! oops!

ekka is watching poker on a poker channel! (dawn, imagine lionel being addicted to it!)
watched mtv earlier on and its about being 16 and pregnant! mtv should have given an insider on a real 16 yr old teen suffering from financials and the stressful painful parts but the 1st episode (out of 3 ) i watched, showed how the guy
married her and they lived happily ever after with no problems. felt it would only encourage teens to quit school and be a parent as it seemed easy!

so anyway, it's our 10th day but we havent been to any tourist attractions yet.(other than Times Square) i have been to those tourist places before though i cant remember a thing. it's ekka first time to the united states! he's always telling me he cant believe it he's in united states though he misses home. i really like it that we are so laid back here and we are takin our time to explore instead of having to rush on a schedule. you know how i love waking up lateeeee or more like i cant wake up. blame my bad sleeping patterns.

anyway its our 10th day and we have spent almost 4 friggin thousand dollars on fooddddddd, groceries, train tix and little stuff here and there. i cant believe how much we have spent!!! and its not like we eat out all the time or indulge in any fine dining places! infact ekka makes brunch for us almost everyday. such a sweetie. mega size too!! will upload pictures soon! (well, i wash all the dishes!)

On monday, we drove up to Woodbury where there are 220 outlet stores! it was an hour drive so it was like our first mini roadtrip here in New York! ekka was sleeping throughout so there goes a little cam whoring in the car to kill time. should have brought chips to snack on.

was really excited to go when i heard there was 220 stores but when i got there,
stuff was either very old fashioned, still about the same price or totally not my style. so i didnt get much. was rather disappointing. seemed like guys have more stuff to buy though. ekka bought 3 pairs of shoes for a huge steal! well, girl's fashion trends come and go, while boys shoes will always be about the same style. i guess that's why girls can never get enough of shoes! so instead of shopping till i drop, i was taking pictures!

Got really hungry halfway and we shared a footlong steak sandwich.
it was sooo good (as we were really hungry) and i was craving for chicken badly (what's new?) so we went to mcdonalds and got ourselves another burger each!
it was really crazy as the burgers are huge in size but really yummy!

and then at night, the 3 of us went to korean town near the empire state building for korean food. frigging $150 for the 3 of us! insane!!!!!

alright, its 5.01 am and my dark eye rings are getting darker and darker :(

happy 4th of july!

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 22:11:59 GMT

hello darlings, greetings from New York!!! it's our fourth day here and we have spent 2 days lazing around at home. we are such bummers but there's no rush as we are gonna be here for the whole friggin month. i should have book my return tix a week earlier than when we are gonna leave this place as it's gonna be my mother's 50th birthday but there's no way i can change my dates. dammit!

so the whole of today was spent buying groceries for tonight's independence day party at home, me cooking mash potatoes and ekka making us a mega yummy burger for lunch! it's 5.38pm now and im bored. everyone's asleep back in singapore. :(

everyone back at home has been asking me what have i bought so far..but believe it or not..me and ekka have yet to buy anything. not completely nothing but almost nothing. its rather shocking actually cause i expected myself to shop till i drop. we went to SOHO again yesterday where the streets are filled with brands like f21, H&M, Topshop, Victoria's Secret etc. To my disappointment, we didnt get anything at all. it came to a point that i wanted to buy something just for the sake of buying! it didnt feel good to be shopping for so many hours but nothing in return. but i guess that's a good thing too, since im really tight in budget!

another note, all the clothes found at these shops are hugeeeeeeeeee in size. its almost impossible to find a size S or it would be in the last piece. and the accessories i bought on SALE from H&M during my last visit in HK were selling in full price here. i was so shock to see that! seems like H&M in HK has better collections of accessories and cothes too. i totally didnt expect this.

to be honest, me and ekka are kinda bored here already and we feel like total losers to be feeling this way. this isnt what we expected to be. all the hype for nothing. but we have yet to make a trip down to statue of liberty, outlet shops etc. so hopefully, our moods will have a drastic change soon! hahah. so much walking to be done here. our legs are aching everyday. so much for bringing nice heels to wear here! lol. cab fares cost more than 40USD to go home when its jus 2 train station away. that made me miss being in singapore.

alright, this is getting too lengthy but this is an update for my favourite people back in Singapore. miss you guys <3

p/s : i still cant get over it that i didnt bring my jacket, belt, necklaces, rings, flats, stockings, any bottoms. i really suck at packing. i will never pack last minute again! :( this also means that i've to buy the above items for my stay here.

oohh!! and i thought that im on the right track for not spending during these 4 days here in NY, but guess what? me and ekka have spent a total of $870!!!! omfg!! all on groceries, one prepaid sim card, train tickets and small stuff. omfg! im freaking out! =/

off to buy more groceries for tonight! (we havent even been dining out much!) ~$~

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 23:37:13 GMT

when i was in the graduation ballroom, me and my classmate were laughing about seeing random helium balloons such as mickey mouse and other cartoon characters. it was funny at that time as it didnt suit the graduation theme, more like a kids birthday party. then i mentioned that if i'd helium balloons, mine will be of princess theme. and true enough when i walked out of the ballroom, i was greeted with the most beautiful pink helium princess balloons (with my name on it) and such a beautiful pink bouquet of roses. (pretty enough as my engagement flowers in the future!hehe) i was really too touched for words because all i expected was their presence. <3

at night, we found a pasar malam along geyland on the way home. we walked around a bit. bought cheap cheap durians and disney princess tattoos back to my place. jac and tess painted their nails and after sending them back home, i went to ekka's place to stay and my maid didnt close the front door and my balloons flew away! i was finding for them when i got back as i wanted to take pictures and cam whore with them but it was gone. really sorry that i havent told you both about it as i dont want to be reminded of it as im really sad about it. it was so pretty. i guess cause there wasnt any weights at the bottom to hold them down. but hope you love the necklace i got from HK! <3

and although ekka didnt get me anything, he has been of great help n support when i was in great stress to complete all my reports and submission requirements. we barely slept for days just to complete everything and it was never ending. we had mcdonalds so often and im breaking out due to the bad sleeping and eating habits. right now, i have 9 free coca cola glasses from mcdonalds!

so last wkend was my exhibition at the Singapore National Library. and then the next day, i went to get a checkup for my eyes, and
immediately i did LASIK!!!! i was really really nervous and my parents came down and surprised me despite being busy at work! i did the latest bladeless lasik technology which was more expensive but totally worth it!! after 5 hours of rest, my eyes had no side effects or uncomfortable feelings. just perfect vision! omg its such a surreal feeling to have perfect eyesight every minute of the day!! everyone should do it! whole procedure was not more than 15 minutes? im not supposed to be exposed to bright lights or even the computer but i didnt care less as i dont feel anything. uh oh. i better take good care of my eyes. apparently, my cornea is pretty thick so i can do lasik again in the future. lol

so bye bye geeky glasss though it made me look really smart on my graduation day. cant believe i actually wore glasses on my graduation day and to pussycatdolls concert (which was bullshit, waste of time & not worth a single cent)

and the exlusive showcase of lady gaga (which was totally beyond awesome!!)
lady gaga FOR THE WIN!!! she has the best stage performance, best personality and best vocals. love her crazy self! <3
and i have to say this again but i swear she saw me. i was in the best standin position jus at her eye level and i wore my really high wedges plus i was standing on something for support screaming like a crazy fan in stupid geeky glasses!

enough pictures for this post or it will be laggy. hate to wait for pictures to load.
it's exactly 8am now and i doubt im gonna sleep. lots of stuff to do today. gotta be at
my dad's office at 10am to settle sime stuff and am gona perm my hair later on
in the day. but im afraid it will spoil and damage my hair like those other times!
but im so sick of my naturally straight hair! and should i cut my boring fringe too?
helppppppp. i hv such a boring hairstyle!! pfft

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 10:03:52 GMT

last presentation of my school life is finally overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! i cant wait to graduate in one week time!!!! i have a dinner to attend tomorrow and my graduation ceremony a few days later. got my period this week. due to that, i got some breakouts on my face and also due to late nights and stress. argh. how am i gonna look pretty on both days. and another problem...my eyes. I dont know if i should wear geeky glasses to both and end up looking really stupid and ugly (as it wont match my dress) or wear contact lens on one side of my eye and have an unclear vision of my surroundings the whole entire night. thing is, i really want to do my lasik as soon as im done with school (though im really really scared of the procedure) but if i wear contacts tomorrow, i have to wear glasses for another two weeks (minimum) just before i can do lasik. arghhhhhhh. its like starting all over from day one. waste of time.

anyway, i have a hot gossip to share about something really funny and embarrassing. heheeheeee. but im not gonna say it here due to the lack of privacy so i'll post a private post after this!

till later! ;)

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 17:13:36 GMT

i wished i could say that the Pussycat Dolls Domination concert tonight was kick-ass! but rather, it was shit-ass!!! waste of time and money! i cant believe what a low-cost production it was! there was no backup dancers or any effects that get you into the mood! and first concert i been that doesnt have any tv screens that has a close up view on their faces. definately hiding and trying to get away from lip-synching! sneakyyyyyyyy pussycat dolls!!

oh and is Lady Gaga gonna perform here?

question?

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 05:32:32 GMT

isit safe to make a trip down to the Big Apple at this period?
actually, im not afraid of the swine flu as im just taking things for granted.
thinking we'll be safe. but currently all the cases in spore got it from NY
or maybe they got it from Tokyo during their transit?

and no way would anyone be caught wearing a mask in NY. not cool!
in Japan, people are actually making their own masks! some even made it out of sanitary pads! ew gross. imagine breathing through that. you can find it off the net for step by step guide in making it.
no thanks!

Tue, 26 May 2009 14:09:01 GMT

hellooooo, im finally well after being sick for 2 whole weeks. had a week of MC as i had high fever, the flu virus, cough and a bad sore throat. so much for eating lots of fried chicken. my body was aching all over. i really hate having a fever. all i did was sleep all day long every single day but thankfully i'd ekka with me by my side. he bought me food, gossip magazines and he even bought me flowers. i was too sick to even appreciate it at that time. but am really thankful that he was spending all his time next to me when i was sleeping most of the time!

he's at bangkok right now since last friday and he's leaving for hongkong n beijing tomorrow. ahhh i wish im done with school so that i'll be able to travel too! but i havent been productive for the whole month since i have been sick n all, and now im screwed!! better buck up tonight!
but here i am, spending time posting pictures up on my dead blog.

anyway, here's a random picture of our supper cooked by ekkaaaaaaaa after we did groceries shopping at Giant n ikea when my family went to china. yummy swedish meat balls pasta n extraaaaa cheese for me n sis.

Just before i fell sick, my right eye was red n hurting all the time. but i took it for granted and continued wearing my contact lens. when my eye got worst, i decided to buy new lens and thats when i found out my right eye has been injured. i panicked when the optician asked if i have injured my eye cause he couldnt get my degree as i'd blur vision. infact, even with spects, i cant see with my right eye. that's when i started panicking and cryin. when i broke the news to ekka that i was losing my vision, he started crying n crying, expecting the worst. aww. how sweet! so, i went to the eye specialist and he told me there's dry spots and it's blocking my vision. so i have to stay off contacts for awhile, then time for lasik!!!

i feel really really giddy whenever i wear spects. since my left eye isn't affected yet, i wear contacts one side whenever i have events to attend. but that makes me half blind, making me slow motion in reaction. hahah. so anyone out there, please rest your eyes from contacts once a while.

Rachel was leaving to china for student exchange, so her parents decided to give her a birthday surprise one month in advance. dinner was held at a private room at Valentinos. As it is near their place, they are really a huge fan of Valentinos and we have been eating it almost everyweekend when im over at their place.

Ian's dad had a suprised birthday party at his place. Live band and catering from Fullerton Hotel. Lots of balloons and all of us were wearing a face mask of either uncle or aunty's face. how fun and sweet! no pictures as i didnt bring my camera with me and that night, ekka got back from bangkok and we met at the party but i refused to talk to him as we fought earlier on. but it was too obvious and all the adults knew we weren't talking.

Hooters for Jeev's birthday. cant believe its been 3 years since me and ekka celebrated his birthday. how time flies. food is over priced there but chicken wings were not bad. birthday boy had a make over by the hooters girls, which made him looked like a transexual. really funny!

Ian's birthday celebration at Morton's. His actual birthday was 2 days after his sis, Rachel. She was in china feeling really sad that she couldnt be in Singapore to celebrate her birthday. What she didnt know, was that we were all at Morton's having a surprise for her as well. Even the menu was printed Happy Birthday to both of them! thought it was amusing. just look at all of our happy n excited expression when we saw her switch on her webcam, after she got out of the shower. we sang happy birthday to her with the whole restaurant looking at us with strange stares!! hahahah

No pictures of the yummy steak as i didnt bring my camera and i dont have the pictures with me yet. my steak was almost rare and very very bloody. It was soooooooo huge that all of us couldnt finish out own steak. feel bad though as it wasn't cheap. Before we made our order, the staff of Morton's gave us a talk on all information of the different parts of beef. it really felt like we were in school. (as above) and finally got a picture of my brother (below) as he's camera shy since young!

Then we went to check out the new butter factory (no pictures) and then me and ekka went over to zouk . Thanks dawn for the pictures!!

Last wed, it was Shea's birthday and we had dinner at Ritz Carlton. buffet was really disappointing. even the desserts didnt tempt me. but i had lots and lots of sashimi as they are my favourite! Though the food was bad, business was really good!! prob cause there's a live band there but it was so noisy. We got Shea a pink barbie doll luggage and the game of life, high school edition which was all in pink! i cant wait to play it.

lastly, last friday was Sherie Baby's 21st birthday celebration at her place. really nice black n silver decoration. Again, i didnt bring my camera so i couldnt capture the beauty of it. i hope you'd a great one babe!!! welcome to club 21!!! hahahahah <3

gosh, all these birthday celebrations in this month or so are making me brokeeeeeeeeeeeee!! spending my allowance on their birthday presents but its all worth it. this sat, it's laura's 21st and we are struggling on what to give this simple lady! lol

now that im all well, im snacking on chips and chocolates. uh oh!! take careeeeeee <3

fun fun fun times!!

Sun, 03 May 2009 19:11:02 GMT

hellooooo guys, it's been awhile.
i actually forgot all about this little blog of mine.
so here's some party pictures to spice up this dead space!

i got a little sick of partying after partying n drinkin everyweekend.
town seems to be really empty over the weekends.
it's such a dead dead city now and i would love to know where
do singaporeans hang out then? cause im really boreeeeeedddddd!
so this wkend, we decided to spend the night doing sandart.
i used to do it all the time when i was younger but it was ek's first time!!
it was really fun! but there werent enough sand so its not completed!

there are tons of partying pictures fround in my fb,
but i chose just a few to be put up in here.
such a chore to save each pic one by one and then do a collage out of it.
and after seeing these clubbing pics, im actually missing the fun we had.
sorry i havent been partying with you guys!!
so girlfriends, this wed or weekend, time to let loose once again!!!

and i miss movie dates where we screamed when zac efron takes out his shirt and nights where
we head to the supermarket to shop for yummy carbos past midnight!! <3

and since my bff cut her hair short, i decided to wear my wig out with her so that we'll be matchy matchy.
and sorry to those who thought my short hair was real. i dont have the guts to go short short yet!! xx

HongKong

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 22:28:55 GMT

i miss hong kong. Or rather, i miss being on a holiday. For the very first time, im actually sick of dimsum. i hate being back in singapore having to face with reality that i have to start being productive once again. im still in the holiday mood and i have been procrastinating ever since i got back. Time to wake up after this weekend. (procrastinating again. sigh) and im not even feeling tired though its 6.25am in the morning! all this time could be spent being productive but instead, i chose to sign up to play Restaurant City on facebook and Twitter today. and im expecting myself to get hooked on both just like everyone else which means i'll never be productive for a very long time. I'd no intentions to do so but my friends been telling me how great n entertaining these 2 sites are. and i hate to explore how the functions work on such stuff. it irritates the shit out of me. Both sites are so laggy because everyone's addicted to them. (so for those who are not on both sites yet, do come visit / follow me) and andddd i feel really jealous when i compare my newly created restaurant with the others. nor do i have any friends on twitter as i havent figured out how this whole system works. i'll just try and figure it out tomorrow! ( procrastinating again. sigh) im such a noob, really.

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Sun, 12 Apr 2009 17:21:12 GMT

Ekka is leaving to Bangkok tomorrow and im supposed to be concentrating on my schoolwork but my head is hurting from a bad migraine and it wouldnt go away tho i ate a pill hours ago.

How time flies, a week ago, we were at Hongkong enjoying ourselves and now another weekend has passed and its time to face reality and start focusing on bloody school. my maid has also gone back for a month as her 20yr old daughter is getting married. we are trying to cope without her and my parents have been really stressed eversince.

We have been having dinner with Ian and his family three times this whole week! too kind and generous of them to have us over all the time.
infact, we are over at their place EVERY wkend for yummy good food, movie marathon & rockband!!

Daddy said he wanted to get a picture with his bunny daughter. hehe
Look at him holding my Kinderjoy egg! lol.
and I wonder why they dont produce KinderSurprise anymore

if only this ride was in baby pink, just like paris'

a frog jumped into the pool, swam for awhile and sank all the way to the bottom.
we thought it was dead as it didnt move for some time.
but slowly after, it started swimming to the edge. frog legs anyone?

Ian made mojito for us while we played rockband! great host!!!

if you are wondering why we are always posing with the 'punk' sign, we were actually inspired by the movie 'Detroit Metal City'.
i dont know if its still playing at Golden Village but it's indeed
the best comedy i have watched this year. really really entertaining!!!!

At 4am, ekka and I crashed over at the birthday girl's hotel room at Ritz Carlton. Happy 21st Maki !